Loving the Divide
All too often our lives are overburdened with responsibilities, worries, physical and emotional challenges and general dis-ease. We feel overwhelmed and discombobulated and out of sorts. We are torn between the two worlds of practicality and fantasy. There are many voices... you know the ones that nag you and remind you that you need to be better, smarter, richer, more beautiful, more talented, more stable... For me that voice often visits in the veil of the night sending me into panic mode as I churn over all of my regrets from the past and all my worries about the future. My heart starts racing and before I know it, I am unraveled from head to toe as my mind takes me on a slippery journey into the nadir of my suffering.
And yet, at times like this, there is often another voice- I call it my higher voice, that speaks from a place of omniscient, unconditional love and surrender. It tells me that everything is going to be fine. That life supports me. That I am safe and that all I need to do is trust. And while I may be quivering under the bed sheets in the shadow of the night, I know in my heart that this voice is my truth. I am so grateful for her mouth which delivers to me sweet words of comfort and wisdom.
Here in lies the two halves of the rock- practicality on the left and fantasy on the right. Or more to the point- fear on the left and trust on the right. I love this photo because it clearly exemplifies the point of this discussion. Notice the space between the two chunks of rock. Observe how it is narrow at the bottom and then opens wide to the sky. This space is where the dance of love abides- in the flowing, cool water of our nurturing, feminine spirit. How utterly metaphorical and artistic is this gift from nature- the true teacher.
Martin Luther King Jr. once said, “Darkness cannot drive out darkness, only light can do that. Hate cannot drive out hate: only love can do that.” For myself, I've recently come to realize that whenever I step out of alignment with my fantasy (the imagining of things that seem impossible), I get very troubled. I become susceptible to anxiety, negativity and fear based thoughts and beliefs.
But what if I align with the light? If I did this, perhaps there would be no fear in my body. There would no worry about my future. I would feel content and at ease. And why? Because I would be abiding in the moment and trusting whatever comes my way. When I am in a state of trust and practicing being present to the moment as it is, I begin to allow life to resonate inside me at a higher frequency. Then I come to know that every experience is perfect and that I AM SAFE! When I begin to drop my agenda and my "trying"- then the magic occurs to be my authentic self. I share and use my weakness as well as my strength to celebrate myself and to help others.
People don’t need help, they need love. Love the Divide. Trust the shadow. It contains a gift. Trust that we are both halves of the broken rock. We are the crack where the light enters and we are the space between opening wide to the mystery called life.